Its been aeons since I had last logged in or written. Have been flying in and out quite a bit recently now that work is picking up. Just came back from Shanghai and think I will be flying again the week after... ARGH! Anyhow, click on "WATCH THIS MOVIE" in this - hilarious video. Warning: CONTENTS ARE VERY LEWD... http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/330027

If you have some time, check out this video. Its Madonna on David Letterman. 

The talkshow degrades in civility over time as Madonna becomes more and more difficult with David. Making very rude remarks at David - no face given at all. Quite shocking. I like.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?search=madonna&v=cRSP5ZUmxP8

Hey, Brian and me may be planning to spend the Good Friday week in Thailand for Songkran. Anyone else interested? Emil, what are your plans for that period? You mentioned before you would be going - does that still hold?

David's POP STAR has made me embark on a mission to dig out all the not-so-straight MTVs which I watched when I was still in the closet... So nostalgic... 

Anyhow, here is yet another fun not-so-straight themed MTV which I also happen to love to bits. This is RuPaul's version of "It's Raining Men" that was made before Geri Halliwell's. Not as visually arresting as "No More I love you's" but still a whole lot of fun to look at... Woohoo....  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynYOHw23o6M&search=its%20raining%20men 

Monday 
Colleague comes asks me to help him manage a group discussion because he has a presentation scheduled for that slot. I was thinking in my head - poor time management but I agreed to help anyway, being the good hearted and cooperative colleague I am. 

Seeing him still lingering around the office 1/2 hr before the presentation, I went up and asked if his presentation was still on. He said it was cancelled so I ask if he would like to run the group then. He declined saying that I should go ahead since  the Korean client who was observing had already briefed me. He will however, observe and manage the client on his end from the observation room. So I went ahead and did my thing.  

Halfway through the session however, I was interrupted. Not once but several times. And each time, the questions were for answers we already have. I was not happy. But I went ahead and ask the questions anyway at the expense of participants giving me a "Were-you-not-listening-to-a-word-of-what-I-said-look?".    

After finishing the session, the client thanked us. Said she had lots of useful information and a whole bunch of "good-to-hear" formalities. Capping it off, my colleague said he would run the following group on Friday. 

Thursday
Colleague has a presentation again for Friday! Apparently, demanded by a very difficult client. ARGH! And asks me to help. I relented. 

Friday 
Colleague says presentation postponed. But asks me to run the discussion again, regardless. However, he said he will sit in cause client requested! What the hell? Why ask me to run the group again if client is not comfortable with me doing it? (Just in case you are wondering, my colleague has been in this field for 9 years, me 3 years)  

So I got pissed and said that if clients are not comfortable with me doing it, then HE should do it. Why sit in? Why waste both our time. I have a mob manning tomorrow and I didnt mind doing it for him if he has something on. But why should I do it if I am not adding value to the project? So I told him that he will have do it if clients are not comfortable with me.  

After being dormant for the longest time, I have decided to break out of silence. Just because you see a tiger sleeping, it doesnt mean that he is sick! Similarly, just because a person doesnt express his thoughts and feelings publicly, it doesnt mean his mind is incapable of thinking... (Just in case you are wondering, nobody said that! just being dramatic... waahaa...)

Anyhow, emotional outrage aside. After going through much reflection (thanks to the manageable workload these days) I have decided that only by writing, would I be able to think about issues in life more meaningfully through a pooled opinion. After all, it is often said that two (or more) heads are better than one.

Having watched Jarhead, I have come to realize that there are many things in life that we take for granted everyday - the air that we breathe, the ease of obtaining food, the comforts of home, sleeping in my bed, your stable paying job, a contented life with your loved ones (and by this i am not talking just abt sex! it could just well be meeting face-to-face, having dinner, etc. - what were you thinking u sick fuck!), etc.

Because of how easy they come by, we tend to forget to appreciate them. Always striving to achieve more, getting the best, satisfying every whim with a new desire. However, one would argue that only by moving on in life would you be able to acquire new things. Sure, you would lose some things along the way but hey, nothing ventured, nothing gained. You could hold on to what you have that is familiar and comfortable, but how would you know what at the end of the day is more comfortable and suitable for you if you did not try? From a quote somewhere, can't remember where though that, "the only thing constant in this world is change".

But what if the decision to change was a wrong one? What if, in our struggle, we lose things along the way. Things which we did not give much care for before but only realize how important they are when we lose it? That, familiarity is afterall, still more comfortable and suitable. For some, upon looking back, will find what they lose - The lucky ones will find what they had lost along the way and gain a whole lot more. For some, they find what they lost but with small cracks on. And yet for others, they cannot find what they lost - losing it forever and keeping them only as memories.

So, having said all this, the question is this: when would we know when it is time to move on? When would we know when to play creatures of habit, staying by familiar ground and when it pays being creature of progression, embracing change? (No, there are no problems between me and my dear. *Slap*)

Here is a really fun xmas games which I have been playing in my office since there is not much LAN gaming these days. I have another but I dun have a link for it though. Both involve killing - my favourite pastime. And dun worry Ben, no tricks on these!

Oh, my top score was 22000+. Still trying to beat that. Have fun! http://www.t-viral.com/christmasbrats/